I was going to blog about this last week, but it was still a little too close to the surface. Last Thursday, we got notice that two of my kiddos had been accepted to a charter school in the area. Last year I signed up all the kids for their lottery. I thought it would at least give me some options. If the kids made it in, I didn't have to enroll them in the school, but if we decided to have them go to school this next year, it would be good to have them in a school that I approved of. This school seemed perfect. It is very close to our house. We have many families who attend charter schools in our neighborhood, and they all have pretty awful commutes. This school is new this year. Many families in our neighborhood will be transferring to it. My sister in law researched all of the schools in the area, and found one that has a curriculum she is very pleased with. The charter school we applied for is patterned after the one my niece and nephews attend. It seemed like the perfect answer. If my kids are going to go to school, this is the school I want them to go to.
The first month, Allen was accepted to the school. Allen will be going into 7th grade this year, and I was beginning to realize that I wasn't pushing him as hard as I should be. Before he was accepted to the charter school, I had enrolled him in an online homeschool program so he would have a more age appropriate curriculum. When he was accepted to the school, I was very nervous. I love homeschooling my kids. I love the easy pace we have with our day. I love being able to decide what to teach my kids. I love spending lots of time in the scriptures and not having to rush through it. We have some of our best discussions during scripture time. I think my kids focus their lives on the things that matter because of those discussions. I was worried that Allen would not be a part of all of our homeschool activities. I also was excited because it would allow me to spend more time with Michael and Makenzie and we would be able to work on subjects that they have a harder time with. It would be less stressful, and I would be able to get more done.
I had been spending the last several months getting ready for this next school year. Most of my lesson plans are done. I found great deals on curriculum materials that I love! The more I planned, the more excited I got about this coming year. Then we found out last Thursday that Michael and Makenzie have also been accepted to the charter school. I don't want to send them!! I can't decide why I don't want to send them. If I could figure out why I feel the way I do, I could analyze my feelings and see if they are valid, or just based on my fears. My biggest question is, what is the best decision for my kids? Which choice is going to help them develop into the kids and adults they need to become? I know in my heart I want them to stay home. They are very excited to go to school. Hubby also wants them to go to school. He is very concerned about their social development. We have decided to go ahead and send them, and see what happens. We know that homeschooling works for our family. It will always be an option to go back to it. The thought of having an empty house for the majority of the day makes my heart ache.